This is me

i am a daughter, a granddaughter, a sister, a twin (hense the 1halfofawhole), an aunty, a friend, i was a wife, and a mother. I am a mess at times, strong and independant at others…..all these things, and everything i have experianced contributes to who i am and who i will be in the future.

I was brought up by two wonderful people, who taught me to be able to laugh at myself, to believe in myself and to always, always follow my heart. They encouraged me to try different things, and to try everything - without this, I would never have been to the places I have been and would not the person I am today.

Without them, I would never have had the strength and courage to move away when I was 18 - for what was meant to a year - but ended up being slightly longer. And although over the last ten years I have experience the hardest moments of my life, I have also experienced some of the most wonderful things. I have met incredible people, made amazing friends and have felt my heart swell with happiness, and been broken in ways I never thought possible.

I am 28 years old, and been in love once.  I am proud of this.  at 15, 16, 17 i swore that whoever i was in a relationship with at the time was the love of the life, the one…….who i would be with forever. 

The person who actually took my heart is the most amazing man.  He knows me inside and out….i swear he sometimes knew me better than i knew myself.  And although we are not together now, he will always be with me.  He was my best friend, my lover, my husband.

I have two best friends in life.  One is my twin - my other half.  She makes me look sane, can always make me laugh, she has the sweetest nature and will kick my arse when needed!  I can’t imagine growing up without her by my side. 

My other best friend is my niece.  She is 3 going on 30!  She is the only 3 year old i know that can laugh at herself, learn a song after only hearing it twice (this is a skill she has def. inherited from me!) and can make me laugh till my belly hurts.  She never stops talking, and takes pride in the fact!  She is far to smart, and i swear by the time she is 5 she will be running circles round us all!  She loves everything girlie in life (this is from her mum not me!) - dolls, dancing, skipping and getting her nails painted!  But she also loves playing in the mud, collecting snails (this is from me!) and starbucks! (also from me! don’t worry, i don’t let her have coffee! she likes the cakes!)

I love the line of work i am in - although i think people think i am strange given the amount of beatings i have taken over the years!  Broken nose, concussions, black eyes……you name it, i’ve probably had it!

i work with people with special needs - i have done for 10years now.  I always feel strange when people tell me i must have patience and be special to work in this field.  Because the truth is, i am lucky.  Over the years, i have worked with some amazing people who have taught me far more than i could ever teach them. And i have been lucky to share their achievements and sucesses.